seriously

Ok seriously now, guys. I'm worried. I know I usually alternate between highs and lows but at the moment it's so so painful on the inside and I don't know what I've done wrong.

I can't decide whether I've done too much or too little. And to be honest it's freaking me out.

Let's break it down.

I certainly haven't neglected strength. Been doing 2-3 sessions most weeks and all of them to my full capability.

Running has also been done properly. Physio gave me the option of aiming for 5K or 10K and I've done AT LEAST 5K each time, sometimes more.

I've done jumps and stuff too.

The only thing I can admittedly say I haven't done properly is sprinting intervals. A lot due to illness. Could that be enough to make it this bad? Sprinting hasn't felt good since December anyway and I've been scared to do it. But I've done high knees and all that.

If there's something I hate in this world, it's not knowing. And I don't know. I really don't. As I'm going home on Sunday I booked an appointment to see CJ (yay!) on Tuesday so hopefully he can either calm me down or crumble my world. I don't do well on grey zones, you may have noticed.

If this doesn't go well I don't know what I'll do...

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