tomorrow

Tomorrow is a huge day. It marks 6 months post-op and officially half-way through rehabilitation. Now this is of course a positive thing, however there are certain aspects holding me back from wild celebrations.

Firstly, half-way through? I don't trust me knee for nothing, and I certainly couldn't play any sports. Volleyball is barely ok, but the thought of basketball freaks me out. Not that I'll play properly again, but you know.

Secondly, how do I proceed with training? My physio says do more normal stuff - but how/what/where? Sure, the gym has classes but all in Japanese and I'm too scared to go alone. What if I break down after 10 minutes?

Thirdly, I don't know. It seems both too good to be true that my knee would finally finally get well, and I just don't see it happening, and it seems strange that it wouldn't. After all I had the top of the top surgeon in Sweden stitch it together, and I have been (relatively) solid on training. Then again we are talking about me. I'm sort of magic. I can make anything blow up in pieces.

Of course there is nothing else to do except go to the gym, work out, run, play volleyball and wait and see. I skipped Disneyland today to gym so it better be worth it.

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