Gym session today. Thought I'd give running a rest and do some strength. What a failure. In leg press I felt som serious meniscal pain so I stopped. Did some more light stuff but I haven't been able to walk all day. It's all wobbly and unstable and threatening to give way at any point. Stairs have been a nightmare.
10+12 mins cycling
Leg press: 2x 65 kg
Leg extension: 3x 28.5 kg
Lunges: 3x 20+5 reps, 8x2 kg
Bending
Abs + arms
Fucking hate this. Tomorrow I'll try running again. Don't know what to do anymore.
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6/28/2012
6/26/2012
6/24/2012
gym like there's no tomorrow
Been lazy to update lately. But not lazy in the gym, rest assure. On a fierce hunt to chase away fat at the moment so doing 5-6 times a week and with longer runs. Fact is, given the circumstances at this point in time, the gym is my favourite place. It's my castle and I make the rules. I love an empty gym where I can just do what I do without any botherance (is that even a word?). People are idiots, mostly, and in the gym it's all me. I love it.
Today:
10K run, 56 minutes
Leg press: 3x 65 kg
Leg extension: 3x 28.6 kg
Glute bridges
Lunges
Abs
Bending
Run killed me, and the second part took an HOUR to do. Still dizzy. But almost on my first goal weight (well, after the run).
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Today:
10K run, 56 minutes
Leg press: 3x 65 kg
Leg extension: 3x 28.6 kg
Glute bridges
Lunges
Abs
Bending
Run killed me, and the second part took an HOUR to do. Still dizzy. But almost on my first goal weight (well, after the run).
x
6/15/2012
run, baby, run
7.5 km in just under 45 minutes.
Glute bridges 2x 30 reps
Happy with that, but now I'm dying. Also back on counting calories, and eating a lot less than I have done in past months. Tired is not enough to describe my state! But I will get down below 20% fat again! + reach my goal weight (secret!). Yes, yes, I will.
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Glute bridges 2x 30 reps
Happy with that, but now I'm dying. Also back on counting calories, and eating a lot less than I have done in past months. Tired is not enough to describe my state! But I will get down below 20% fat again! + reach my goal weight (secret!). Yes, yes, I will.
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6/14/2012
10k
Managed 10.5 km in 60 minutes today.
Also, glute bridges 2x 30 reps.
Gotta be happy with that. Towards the end, our dear little knee was tired to say the least. But it fought all the way to the finish line, or for that I'll say well done and treat it nicely tonight. Good girl (it'd be weird if I regarded it a boy...right?)
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Also, glute bridges 2x 30 reps.
Gotta be happy with that. Towards the end, our dear little knee was tired to say the least. But it fought all the way to the finish line, or for that I'll say well done and treat it nicely tonight. Good girl (it'd be weird if I regarded it a boy...right?)
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6/13/2012
Been gymming lightly lately because of illness. When I get ill my knee becomes shaky, and I can't see the point in heavy lifting at all. I do try to do light stuff, just to keep it going, but obviously it does affect it negatively.
Right now it hurts, and I can barely walk because it's so shaky. Also rather sleep deprived these days so that might have an impact as well.
Measured my fat today. 24.3% - not happy with that. I made a deal with the instructor that I'd go down to 22% before I leave. I should be able to do it. I know I'm fat right now.
Sucks balls. That's sort of a decent summary.
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Right now it hurts, and I can barely walk because it's so shaky. Also rather sleep deprived these days so that might have an impact as well.
Measured my fat today. 24.3% - not happy with that. I made a deal with the instructor that I'd go down to 22% before I leave. I should be able to do it. I know I'm fat right now.
Sucks balls. That's sort of a decent summary.
x
6/09/2012
today
Time was limited, so brief session. Also ill still.
10 mins cycling
Leg press: 3x 65 kg
Leg extension: 3x 28.5 kg
Squats: 3x 20 kg
Glute bridges: 1x 30 reps
Arms + upper body
I'm moving closer to giving up. Think it's for the best.
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10 mins cycling
Leg press: 3x 65 kg
Leg extension: 3x 28.5 kg
Squats: 3x 20 kg
Glute bridges: 1x 30 reps
Arms + upper body
I'm moving closer to giving up. Think it's for the best.
x
6/07/2012
give up 2.0 beta
In all honesty, I am now very very close on giving up. However, the difference from earlier threats of such action is that this time I really don't mean it in a self-destructive and potentially compromising way. No, not at all.
The hard fact is, the chance of full recovery for a first time ACL reconstruction is somewhere around 85-90%. We all know how what went and why. For a second reconstruction, the odds go down to 50%. In other words, it can go either way.
I think it's soon time for me to realise and accept that for me, this time as well, the odds went against me. Shit happens, and last time it was a human mistake - this time, statistics simply weren't in my favour. It's not necessarily disastrous, and I'm not wallowing in my typical self-pity here, no. It's a simple observation that I'm over 12 months post-op, I'm doing (and have done) the best I can but it's not getting any better.
I shall of course continue training, and sometimes it'll feel good, but perhaps most often not. My sporting days were over from before anyway, and to be fair, as long as I eat properly it does function fairly well on a daily basis. Might not be able to do that marathon I've sort of been considering lately, but I guess there are worse fates to come by.
Does it make me sad? Yes, a little. But I can't go on fooling myself forever, letting every moment of my life go to trying to fix it, or plan ways to fix it, dreaming about things to do. Somewhere I need to find a way to let it go, let it be the eternal part of me as it will be, but place it in the backseat rather than in front of the wheel. It's not a particularly good driver.
No official decisions set in stone yet, but it is certainly the way I'm headed. Should you have any comments/advice here, whoever you are, please feel free to drop them in the comment box below. I don't trust myself anymore.
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The hard fact is, the chance of full recovery for a first time ACL reconstruction is somewhere around 85-90%. We all know how what went and why. For a second reconstruction, the odds go down to 50%. In other words, it can go either way.
I think it's soon time for me to realise and accept that for me, this time as well, the odds went against me. Shit happens, and last time it was a human mistake - this time, statistics simply weren't in my favour. It's not necessarily disastrous, and I'm not wallowing in my typical self-pity here, no. It's a simple observation that I'm over 12 months post-op, I'm doing (and have done) the best I can but it's not getting any better.
I shall of course continue training, and sometimes it'll feel good, but perhaps most often not. My sporting days were over from before anyway, and to be fair, as long as I eat properly it does function fairly well on a daily basis. Might not be able to do that marathon I've sort of been considering lately, but I guess there are worse fates to come by.
Does it make me sad? Yes, a little. But I can't go on fooling myself forever, letting every moment of my life go to trying to fix it, or plan ways to fix it, dreaming about things to do. Somewhere I need to find a way to let it go, let it be the eternal part of me as it will be, but place it in the backseat rather than in front of the wheel. It's not a particularly good driver.
No official decisions set in stone yet, but it is certainly the way I'm headed. Should you have any comments/advice here, whoever you are, please feel free to drop them in the comment box below. I don't trust myself anymore.
x
"run"
Tried a run today. Fail. 1.94 km before knee started acting up. Instead of giving in as I'd usually do, I walked for a bit, then put on my motivational tune and tried running again. Made it up to 5 km in total, 34 minutes (ridiculous) before I stopped.
Did some bending and my glute bridges so overall it's ok. It's enough to count for a session.
But I'm not happy with this anti-progress. Not sure if it has to do with illness, or what, but yeah...no smiley faces.
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Did some bending and my glute bridges so overall it's ok. It's enough to count for a session.
But I'm not happy with this anti-progress. Not sure if it has to do with illness, or what, but yeah...no smiley faces.
x
6/05/2012
shake it up shekerim
Today the knee was so shaky I couldn't even do balance board. Squats were a joke and nothing worked. I am so so sick of this behaviour now. It's been 12 months, I'm not supposed to be at this low level! Frustration.
When frustrated I eat chocolate, get fat, and more frustrated. Fucking logic.
20 mins cycling
Leg press: 3x 70 kg
Leg extension: 3x 30 kg
Glute bridges: 2x 30 reps
Attempted squats, jumps, balance
Bending: 3x
Hate it, hate it, hate it. After my tutoring tonight I'm getting chocolate. So far I've binged on sushi, yoghurt and noodles. I'm disgusting. F-word.
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When frustrated I eat chocolate, get fat, and more frustrated. Fucking logic.
20 mins cycling
Leg press: 3x 70 kg
Leg extension: 3x 30 kg
Glute bridges: 2x 30 reps
Attempted squats, jumps, balance
Bending: 3x
Hate it, hate it, hate it. After my tutoring tonight I'm getting chocolate. So far I've binged on sushi, yoghurt and noodles. I'm disgusting. F-word.
x
6/03/2012
gymming
10 mins cycling
Interval cycling
Leg press: 3x 70 kg
Leg extension: 3x 30 kg (10)
Glute bridges: 2x 30 reps
Balance ball jump: 3x 15 reps
Agility ladder + sprint: 3x 10 sets
Squats: 3x 20 kg (10)
Calf raises: 2x 20/leg
Also tried some square jumps on one leg but it was bad. I don't trust it for anything and I'm not sure how to get out of that. I don't know what I'm doing wrong either. Got plenty of muscle but it doesn't seem to do much for me!
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Interval cycling
Leg press: 3x 70 kg
Leg extension: 3x 30 kg (10)
Glute bridges: 2x 30 reps
Balance ball jump: 3x 15 reps
Agility ladder + sprint: 3x 10 sets
Squats: 3x 20 kg (10)
Calf raises: 2x 20/leg
Also tried some square jumps on one leg but it was bad. I don't trust it for anything and I'm not sure how to get out of that. I don't know what I'm doing wrong either. Got plenty of muscle but it doesn't seem to do much for me!
x
6/02/2012
yday
Went to the gym but forgot my shoes. What an idiot.
Glute bridges: 2x 30s
Hip flex: 3x 10/leg
Back+abs+arms
Stretch
Got the glute bridges done at least. I'm ill, and consequently extremely tired. Not sure how to handle it.
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Glute bridges: 2x 30s
Hip flex: 3x 10/leg
Back+abs+arms
Stretch
Got the glute bridges done at least. I'm ill, and consequently extremely tired. Not sure how to handle it.
x
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