just an update

I'm still in pain muscle-wise from 2 days ago so I took a resting day today. Ran 4.5 km yesterday and limped off the treadmill. Now it hurts when I'm walking.

As such.

I gym, it hurts. I rest, it hurts.

Another one of those moments: I am 23 years old. I cannot go out for a walk because it will probably hurt. I can run maximum 5 km on a good day before I have to stop because of pain/instability. 

In Olympics times, this defect becomes more apparent. I'm trying to get used to being an ex-athlete, but when I can't even walk normally, I can't help but to despair. 4 knee surgeries, and what for? This is not life.

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